Climb high
Enjoy the freedom
and endless vastness.

Open the wings
Float in the blue sky
Carried by the wind
as your friend.

Unfold yourself wide
Once again flourish
Rejoice in life
that’s given to you.

Let yourself be carried
On the wings of the eagle
During your next stage
on the way to the goal.

The evening is approaching
The strength is waning
But the eternal Father
lovingly carries you home.


Soar * Schwinge dich auf
Soar * Schwinge dich auf

The poem was written on the occasion of the retirement and 70th birthday of a dear friend, inspired by Willow Tree‘s figure “Soar”. The picture was made later.

Both the figure and the picture symbolize for me a release for something new. The original reason was the knowledge that even at the age of 70, my friend will not simply fall into a state of inactivity, but will now use the time for a new, last period of flourishing of the God-given gifts and possibilities. But this is not only true for my friend or others on the verge of retirement. There is potential in all of us and we are challenged to unfold the possibilities that lie within us, just like a butterfly that has just hatched out of its cocoon and is unfolding its wings. Gradually the full size of its wings becomes visible.

The bird in the picture and in the figurine is encouraged to fly away by raising the hands. Sometimes we need such “midwives”. They remind me of some bird species that push their hesitant offspring out of the nest or unobtrusively deprive them of their direct support when flying. The fledglings have to overcome their hesitation and flap their own wings. And so we too must fly ourselves or we will be sucked into the comfort of the status quo.

Therefor, you too – Soar – to new adventures – and open your wings wide!

Steps of Faith in a Storm – Poem

Steps of Faith in a Storm – Poem

I wrote the poem “Steps of Faith in a Storm” in a very difficult time, when people whom I trusted harassed and hurt me deeply. It’s my first attempt of translating a German poem into English.

Steps of Faith in a Storm

Spilling breaking waves waves waves waves waves
storm storm storm

The boat sways on high sea
I stand uncertainly on my legs
powerless against the powers

I stare at the shape in the fog
and a gentle voice in me calls:
Come! Trust me!

I inhale deeply
I want to dare the leap
and let go of the edge of the boat
I step on the water…

I forgive my enemies
pray for those, who persecute me
and don’t take revenge

I step on the water
and the water carries me
the water carries me
hopefully for a long time!?!

And if not
I will try it tomorrow again.


Spilling breaking waves waves waves waves waves
storm storm storm

The boat sways on high sea
I stand uncertainly on my legs
powerless against the powers

I stare at the shape in the fog
and a gentle voice in me calls:
Come! Trust me!

I inhale deeply
I want to dare the leap
and let go of the edge of the boat
I step on the water…

I forgive my brothers and sisters who wrong me
I pray for those, who hurt me
and I don’t lash out at them

I step on the water
and the water carries me
the water carries me
for a loooooong time!


Glaubensschritt * Steps of Faith
Glaubensschritt * Steps of Faith

I had painted the picture that meshes with the poem “Steps of Faith in the Storm” more than one year before that. Originally, for me it referred to the steps of faith that I take by trusting God and following his guidance.

I wrote the poem, when I discovered a new dimension of steps of faith – when I am unfairly treated and harassed, to not insist on my right, defend myself or strike back, but let go and trust that God is above it all and can turn things around for good.

That is what happened in the specific situation, during which I suffered a lot and felt helpless at the mercy of some higher powers. In the end, God turned the situation around and changed it into blessings.

Graduation Exhibition

Graduation Exhibition

After two years and many courses our art study at the Leonardo Kunstakademie Salzburg is coming to an end. We are celebrating this with a graduation exhibition this weekend. During the opening ceremony we will also receive our certificates.

Besides our examination paintings (which you can see on the invitation below), we will also display several selected paintings which Prof. Baier chose among all the paintings we produced during these two years.

My colleagues and graduation colleagues of the study course XVIII are the following:

The opening ceremony and presentation of certificates will take place on Saturday, November 14, 2015 at 6 pm in Schloss Mattsee, Austria (5163 Mattsee, Schlossberg 1, Diabellisaal). The exhibition is open for the public until Sunday, November 15, 2015, from 9 am to 4 pm.

All are invited to celebrate with us.

Einladung Abschluss-Ausstellung Seite 1
Einladung Abschluss-Ausstellung Seite 1
Einladung Abschluss-Ausstellung Seite 2
Einladung Abschluss-Ausstellung Seite 2

What goes into the making and selling of one painting?

What goes into the making and selling of one painting?

Recently, I did another painting of a new series “Austrian Lakeviews”.

For the last three weeks I was near one of the most beautiful lakes in Austria – the Weißensee in Carinthia. So, I wanted to paint it ever since I arrived in the area. But it took me a week to find the time to visit the lake and take some photos.

Weissensee * White Lake (Abstract)
Weissensee Abstrakt * White Lake Abstract

When I was finished with one of them, I realized that I had done it in only two hours. I did have to correct some aspects on the following days. That was not surprising because it is a fairly small format since I’m not at home and the table in my hotel room was fairly small. So I’m glad that I chose to bring only my 16 x 12 inch paper with me.

Later that day I started reflecting on how much time goes into the pre- and post- processing of one painting.

Here are the areas that come to mind immediately.

  • Buying supplies – even though I do most of that online, it can take quite some time, eg, comparing prices and special promotions. Or finding the right color, because unfortunately different brands have different names for the same color. Or even the same brand; e.g. Schmincke Akademiecryl and Primacryl don’t use the same names. Sometimes there is no way around it and I have to drive to the store myself. Such as recently I wanted a specific painting knife and could not see the right one online. As a result I decided to stop at one store in Salzburg on my way to Carinthia.
  • Searching the right image – that means either talking the photos myself such as in the case of the Weißensee, or find the right image online. Google image is great but it does not tell me easily whether an image is copyright protected or not. Flickr has the advanced search option for creative commons images. Unfortunate this option does not seem to exist in the mobile version for iPads. :-( Another great resource is the website called Paint My Photo. Once you’re a member you can paint any photo posted there. Or, as a last resort I sometimes request permission from a photographer. For example, I’m very inspired by the photos of an Italian photographer on Flickr, Andrea Pucci. I recently asked for his permission and was thrilled to receive it.
  • Choosing an image – deciding which image is the right one for today can take time too. I might have decided on am image yesterday but today I find it not inspiring at all.
  • Laying out the supplies – this can be done in a sec if you have a permanent place. Changing from one medium to another takes time if you have only one table.
  • The actual painting process – might take only two hours like the one mentioned above, but that’s the absolute minimum. Often when I look at it again the next day(s), there are things that need adjusting. This can take several days or longer. Of course – larger formats and more complex topics require more time.
  • Photographing the painting – once I’m satisfied with the result, I take photos from the painting. Sometime that needs waiting for the right time of day or special arrangements for the proper lightning.
  • Processing of photos – these photos are then transferred to the laptop and processed with Lightroom. This process could be a separate blog post. I usually take several photos from the same painting. I do the lens adjustment and cropping of each photo and then decide which one I want to keep. Then comes the naming, tagging and other metadata, before I export them for different types of online usage.
  • Online presence – that’s another big subject that requires a separate post. There are countless options with different advantages and disadvantages. Most of the time, I post them on my website, my Facebook artist page, Twitter, and my Fine Art America page. BUT – posting them online is usually not enough to make a sale. Don’t believe the myth of passive income while you sleep. Passive income happens only after you have invested countless hours of post and self-promoting.
  • Advertising and marketing are the biggest chunk of time. Leslie Saeta mentioned in an interview that it takes 50 % of her time.
  • This includes the planning and preparation of exhibitions. Again this will be a blog post in its own right. For any kind of exhibiting, I need to decide how to frame it and which matting to use. There are several places where I buy frames all of which require driving between 20 to 40 kms. For the matting I usually have to drive twice to the next town (15 kms away), first to choose the color and size and then to pick it up several days later.
  • Hanging an exhibition usually requires several hours. Slightly less time is needed for talking them down. Plus it requires time for the design of the invitation, the price list, the personal bio, and the labeling of each painting. Even though I’ve done several exhibitions in the past, I always seem to underestimate the time necessary for all these details.
  • Shipping – if the painting is sold online, it is usually mailed without matting and frame to save on shipping costs. However it can take a lot of emails until a client comes to a final decision on which painting to buy. And of course, careful packing and shipping takes time.
  • Last but not least, each sale requires the writing of an invoice and/or receipt, as well as doing the bookkeeping process and the taxes.

As you can see, there is more than just the actual painting process that is needed until I have the money in my pocket.

Summary of the above tasks.

Doing a rough estimate on the list above, I came to the following minimal times for just ONE painting:

* Preparations for painting – at least 1.5 hrs
* Painting – between 3 hrs (2 hrs is rare), 3 days or 3 months (with interruptions).
* Post-painting photographing – at least 1.5 hrs
* All tasks around an exhibition – 2 hrs (time split up between several paintings)
* All tasks around an online sale – 3 hrs

All of these estimates do not include the factor that not all paintings are sold. So, you’d have to multiply the hours with a factor, based on the conversion percentage. Neither do these times include all tasks related to general advertising and marketing, both online and offline – for these you can probably double the number of hours. Plus there are all kinds of smaller tasks that are not directly related to one painting or one sale, such as networking and improving your skills.

All in all a good reminder

Even if a painting was done in only two hours, there is much more that goes into it.

> For myself, this is a good reminder for when fixing my own prices.
> For my artist friends, maybe it will help you to be more realistic in your own pricing.
> For those who buy art, I hope it will help you appreciate the time investment by the artist.

Don’t underestimate the time and effort that goes into one painting!

What is your experience? Have you ever tried to calculate the time needed?


25 Random Things about Me (2015 version)

25 Random Things about Me (2015 version)

Several years ago (2009?), I participated in a Facebook meme. I had fun reading the lists of “25 random things about me” from other friends, so I wrote my own list after I being tagged by several.

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

(To do this, go to Facebook “notes” under tabs on your profile page (if it’s not there, use the “+” to get to it), paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the upper right corner of the app) then click publish).

Here is a revised version of my “25 random things about me” in case you are interested:

1. I am dyslexic and had a hard time in school with German and English, but was top of the class in Math. I consider it God’s humor that he called me into a language related work. As a result, I went to England as an Au Pair (nanny) to improve my school English, and had to learned French for one year in France. In addition I learned Dutch during my time living in the Netherlands and Spanish during a short-term work in Mexico. Again for my work, I had to learn three African languages: Sango in CAR, Djenaama and Bambara in Mali. Along the way I learned a little bit here and there but I can’t claim to speak them, such as Turkish and Italian. During different training courses we practiced learning a language for a few weeks, including Amharic, Kurdish, Chinese, Lingala, Suaheli. In most cases I only remember one word of these.

2. I can’t read a book or article without finding spelling mistakes.

3. I was not allowed to speak the local dialect as a child (by my parents) so my pronunciation sounded rather “German” (not Austrian), to the point that some Austrians would not believe me that I am Austrian, especially after 3 years at a Bible college in Germany. For Germans it was always clear that I am not German but Austrian. Talk about identity conflict.

4. I hate traveling but keep doing it a lot for the sake of God’s calling. I have lived in Austria, Germany, the Netherlands, Great Britain, Mexico, France, USA, Cameroon, Central African Republic, Mali. I have visited Italy, Yugoslavia, Hungary, Romania, Czechoslovakia, Poland, Switzerland, Belgium, Spain, Zaire, Chad, Kenya, Senegal, Ivory Coast, Santa Domingo, Croatia, Greece, and maybe some more which I forgot. I even traveled three times to Eastern Europe as Bible smuggler before the fall of the Iron Curtain. For now I am done traveling that much, since it probably contributed to my burnout.

5. My original training was in plastic engineering, as part of a technical high school, but equivalent to a college degree. I would have needed to work in this domain for two years to officially obtain my engineers title, which I never did.

6. I am fascinated by other cultures and love to observe and analyze cultural differences and personal idiosyncrasies. I also love guessing where people who I see in public come from and what language they might speak.

7. I am an organizer and love logic puzzles. My love for whodunits probably falls in the same category.

8. I first need a framework before any detail information makes sense to me. I guess that means that I am a global thinker.

9. I got my first camera at age 14 and loved photography ever since. I learned a lot about good composition through it. Or maybe I should say, I did it intuitively right which was very helpful also for painting.

10. I am from the tribe of “hunters and gatherers” – during my childhood this meant catching frogs, lizards, grasshoppers, and collecting stamps, coins, dried plants, books, song texts, poems, etc. – Now most of my collecting is digital: photos, music files, computer programs, song texts, articles, etc). And I no longer put dead mice in my colleague’s in-baskets. ;-)

11. I love all kinds of dancing and started teaching others to dance at age 16. I once opened a ball with the Lutheran Bishop of Austria, Oskar Sarkrausky – he was a very good dancer. During a recent furlough I won two tickets for the Concordia Ball, the ball of the Austrian Press club, in the Vienna Rathaus (city hall). It was a challenge to find all the things (dress, shoes, accessories) AND a dance partner within three days but it was great fun.

12. During school I learned playing recorder, during Bible college guitar, and during a recent furlough I started playing clarinet. I did not get very far with playing the pan flute.

13. During the same furlough I took singing classes and even reached the high B. During the next furlough I learned to more use my chest voice. Regrettably I am better in singing along than singing solo.

14. I love musicals and grew up listening to West Side Story, My Fair Lady, Man of La Mancha, Anatevka (Fiddler on the Roof), Porgy and Bess which my father had on tapes – old-fashioned big tapes.

15. I have a large family because my mother had 7 siblings and my grandfather 12. One of my great-grand-fathers was a wood turner. During his journeymanship he traveled all over Europe mostly on foot – Dresden, Vienna, Trieste, Lyon, Paris, London, and eventually got married in Paris with a wife sent to him from back home. Another line of my ancestors goes back to the Huguenots from France who fled to Czechoslovakia and later came to Austria.

16. I love watching (and photographing) sunsets and other sun atmospheres and clouds. They can calm my spirit in incredible ways. Watching birds from close by touches my heart deeply. And looking on water surfaces is very therapeutic.

17. I can be very curious. Which really helps with strange food – I have eaten porcupine, snake, bush rat, monkey, gazelle, elephant trunk, elephant guts, cat, giant frog (3kg! photo below for those who can’t believe it), caterpillars, termites, locusts. Elephant trunk is the finest meat and caterpillars with Koko leaves in peanut sauce was my favorite dish in CAR.

Giant Frog * Riesenfrosch
Giant Frog for Lunch * Riesenfrosch zum Mittagessen

18. I won a bike with three gears at age 14 in a youth traffic quiz. I had it for many years until it was stolen in the Netherlands only a week or so before moving back to Austria.

19. For a relaxing vacation I like to read a lot and swim, preferably in the ocean with lots of surf. A special bonus is when I also have a chance to do windsurfing which unfortunately does not happen very often.

20. I never stick to a recipe but like to change it. That’s called creativity.

21. I learned the hard way that maintaining relationships is more important than avoiding high telephone costs.

22. For a long time I was “half-African” when it came to temperatures due to living in Africa for 20 years – I hated the cold, and everything below 26C/80F was cold for me, which did not mean that I liked it when it’s too hot, i.e. above 32C/90F. During the recent years in Austria my body re-adapted to European temperatures. Luckily! Or I might be frozen stiff by now. ;-)

23. I think that there are no black people, not even in Africa, because even those called black are shades of brown. In my dreams all people have the same skin color. I usually recognize a friend in my dreams not by their skin color but by their mannerisms.

24. I love worshiping God through songs and when ever possible like to express my worship through free style worship dance. Even though I had dreamed about it for many years, the final impetus for this type of worship came from a Fuller colleague and therapist, whose artist name was Picasso.

25. Last but not least – since the original meme I discovered that I am HSP (highly sensitive person, also called sensory processing sensitivity). It was really eyeopening and explains so much of what I knew about myself. I wrote a blog post about it which you can read here. (This replace the random fact of painting, which is no longer any surprise.)

I would love to get to know my readers

If you have done a similar list, feel free to post the link below in the comment section.

If you have don’t, I’d ask that you post 1-3 random facts about yourself below in the comment section.


LKS Advanced Course 4.

LKS Advanced Course 4.

At the beginning of July we have arrived at the last compulsory course of our art study. And with the need to paint our final examination painting which we awaited with trepidation.

Teaching Subjects

The subjects of the course included the last sections of art history, material knowledge, and painting techniques, as well as the painting of our examination piece.

After taking time to review and evaluate our homework and receiving the professor’s feedback on them on the first day, we were told the topics for the examination piece to choose from.

Topics for the examination painting:

  • The manipulated human
  • Paths of Life
  • Youth and Old Age

And then we dove into the work. After having done several sketches and developed different ideas, we discussed them with Prof. Baier. To my own surprise and delight, I was able to finish my first piece until the evening of the second course day. This helped me to be more relaxed the remaining days, while working on two further paintings. The first two paintings pictured “The manipulated Human” and the third one, “Youth and Old Age” (life perspectives).

All three of them are painted with Acrylic paint on canvas, 40 x 32 in (100 x 80 cm).

LKS Advanced Course 3 Homework.

LKS Advanced Course 3 Homework.

As usually after every compulsory course, we received at list of assignments to be painted at home until the next compulsory course. On the first day of the next course the leader of the academy, Prof. Hannes Baier, would take time to evaluate and critique our paintings in details.


This time we received the following assignments:

  • 1 Group of houses in a landscape
  • 3 Figural paintings in different techniques
  • 2 Portraits in color
  • 3 Concept paintings about abstract topics
  • 2 Sgraffito paintings

Topics to choose from.

For the concept paintings we had the following topics to choose from:

  • I and the Other
  • Today and Tomorrow
  • Lost Childhood

For the concept paintings I decided to do two versions of “Lost Childhood” – an African version and a European version, and one painting about the topic “I and the Other – our paths cross and part”.

For the Sgraffito paintings I chose two African motives – women who carry calabash on their heads. Calabash are made from the shells of a gourd. They are used for transporting milk and rice and many other things, and in the the kitchen they search as serving and mixing bowls.

These were the last homework assignments for the Basic Art Study Course in Painting and Graphics at Leonardo Art Academy Salzburg.

The Modern Portrait in Different Techniques

The Modern Portrait in Different Techniques

Mid May I participated in the very last elective seminar of my art studies. The topic of portraits has long interested me and from time to time I practiced portrait drawing and painting with the help of my JKPP friends.

This time the topic was not just “normal” portrait painting.

Excerpt from the course description:

From everybody’s childhood to Leonardo’s spot on the wall, the alienation of physiognomical perception is the source of interpretation and insight. In this process it can happen that “only the inner image” of the physiognomy of the other comes fully into its own (as can be seen in the works of Beckmann, Ensor, Kokoschka, Modigliani, Schiele, Picasso and others).

In this  portrait seminar we will emphasize the own view and the subjective visual language, because the exploration of the vis-à-vis will also further the exploration of one’s own self.

During this seminar the goal was not so much to paint a realistic picture of another person and aim at 100% resemblance but the exploration of different techniques that are suitable for modern portraits.

As a result, similarities with living persons are more or less accidental. ;-)

Nevertheless, if one wants to depict a certain person in a modern style portrait, then it is of utmost importance that the eye area is correct and leads to a recognition effect.

Painting Techniques of Schiele, Morandi, Modigliani and Cezanne

Painting Techniques of Schiele, Morandi, Modigliani and Cezanne

At the beginning of May I attended my last but one elective course of my art studies. I was already familiar with Cezanne and Schiele, but it was my first encounter with Morandi and Modigliani.

Excerpts from the course description:

All four artists are representative for a groundbreaking visual language, because all depictions and expressions are impartation, which means seeing “something” in the light of  the “other”.

Egon Schiele (1890 – 1918) aimed to show in his idiosyncratic work above all the “inner truth” through artistic means. In doing so he was always searching to show the psychological mood of the persons, may it be in an act, or in an existential “for itself” depicted object or landscape, in their fateful, individual being – as opposed to the mostly superficial “by itself” (per se) conventional representation.

Giorgio Morandi (1890 – 1964) prefers to deal with the magic of simple forms of things, which through their sobriety and reduction as well as their pastel tones, transform the common place objects into treasures.

Amedeo Modigliani (1884 – 1920) wants to depict a person in such a way that his basic, existential essentially seems to be “poured” into a body shape. Soft and flowing figuration, that often seems archaic, with almond-shaped often sightless eyes, turns the person into an exchangeable “transitory object” and art object.

Paul Cezanne (1839 – 1906) wants to see art as a “harmony parallel with nature.” He is deemed groundbreaking in technique and style for the avant-garde (fragmentation of contours, and colors, reduction of forms to geometrical object, alienation and glorification of the trivial, etc.), as the “caesura” and thereby “Father of Modernism”.

After a thorough introduction into the biography and painting techniques of these four artists each of us chose one artist for the practical application in our own paintings.

I was especially intrigued by the style of Modigliani, even though I could not go as far as painting the same kind of sightless empty eyes. Nevertheless, I tried to apply his other principles in my own paintings.


Dance with Immanuel – Cold Wax Painting

Dance with Immanuel – Cold Wax Painting

Suddenly I felt lifted up with a lot of momentum and whirled around as if we were dancing exuberantly before Immanuel put me down in the middle of a green mountain pasture.

Tanz mit Immanuel * Dance with Immanuel
Tanz mit Immanuel * Dance with Immanuel

Come, trust my guidance!

Dancing is like no other activity an expression of vulnerability (Brené Brown). Especially if it is a free style form of dancing. Only when you are inwardly free and healed, do you have the liberty to express yourself in dance.

During a conference one unit started with a time of quiet and guidance for the Immanuel process (a kind of spiritual exercise). We had just been told to remember a moment where we experienced God’s presence especially clearly. Even before I could think of something, I suddenly had the inner impression that Jesus lifted me up with a lot of momentum and whirled me around in a circle as if we were dancing and frolicking around, before he put me gently down in the middle of a green mountain pasture.

What a surprise! I was completely unprepared for this and speechless. I certainly could not have imagined that on my own. It was a moment of reveling joy in a beautiful surrounding. It was an expression full of exuberant joy, joy about being together, freedom, liberty, vulnerability, beauty, wordless appreciation and agreement.

When reflecting upon it and wondering what Jesus wanted to tell me through this vision, he showed me that this was in a direct contrast to the treatment by others I was used to. Jesus rejoices over me, despite my imperfections and treats me with a lot of appreciation and respect as a woman.

With Jesus I do not need to be afraid, that he might tear off my stripes or treat me pejoratively because of some failure or lack of gifting, or that he would treat me like a second-class citizen because I am a woman.  Only in Jesus can we find such complete acceptance and security!


The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.
Zeph, 3,17

Jesus Stood Still – Cold Wax Painting

Jesus Stood Still – Cold Wax Painting

The story of a blind beggar in Jericho became my own personal story, when one day several years ago Jesus stood in front of me during a worship service and asked me the same question: What do you want?

Jesus bleibt stehn * Jesus stood still
Jesus bleibt stehn * Jesus stood still


Come, tell me what you really want!

The story of a blind beggar in Jericho led to an amazing process of healing in my own life. When Jesus and his disciples walked past the beggar, he called out “Have mercy on me!” The bystanders threatened him to stop shouting, but Jesus stood still and called the beggar to himself and asked, “What do you want me to do for you?”

During the sermon about this biblical story, suddenly Jesus stood still in front of me. And he asked: “What do you want me to do for you?” What a unique and God-given moment, like rarely before and after.

What things would come to your mind? Wealth? Health? Long life? Marriage partner? Special gifting?

After some going and back and forth in my thoughts, I answered, “Jesus, I want to be free from my addictions.” Even though I had learned with the help of the 12-step program to manage my addictions fairly well, I knew deep down, that I was not completely free.

Jesus answered “OK!” I did not know when it would happen, and I did not want to shout victory too early, but after a few months it was obvious that a real change had happened. I was free from my addictive behavior such as workaholism, overeating, control addiction and their various relatives. Praise God!

The same year God gave healing and liberation in several other areas of my life. That’s why I call it my “Year of Jubilee.”


Jesus said to him, “Go your way; your faith has made you well.”
And immediately he recovered his sight and followed him on the way.
Mk 10:52

God’s Eyes Speak Acceptance – Cold Wax Painting

God’s Eyes Speak Acceptance – Cold Wax Painting.

God’s eyes speak of his acceptance and love. Meanwhile this is the most natural thing for me, but this was not always the case. What is your inner picture of God?

Gottes Lächeln * God's Smile

Most people project their negative experiences with strict and overly critical parents or teachers on to God. In front of their inner eyes they see somebody who always watches them with a strict frown, or they hear with their inner ears an inner critic, believing that this must be God.

Come, let his love heal you!

Even though I never consciously had a negative image of God, in the sense, for example, that he watches me with a strict frown, just waiting to catch me in the act, it was still a long journey until I realized his love and acceptance more fully. Not just once in a while, but constantly.

One thing that helped me a lot in this was a simple line drawing of God’s benevolant smile. For a long time this drawing hang in my bedroom as a daily reminder of what I knew in theory. Through it, it trickeled slowly into my subconscious that God is indeed on my side and that he loves me just as I am. His love and acceptance was the most important factor for my transformation and inner healing.

This painting is an imperfect attempt, to picture this inviting expression of God’s eyes, that expresses his perfect love and acceptance.


And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit. 2 Cor 3,18