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Jesus Stood Still – Cold Wax Painting

Jesus Stood Still – Cold Wax Painting

The story of a blind beggar in Jericho became my own personal story when one-day several years ago Jesus stood in front of me during a worship service and asked me the same question: What do you want?

Jesus bleibt stehn * Jesus stood still
Jesus bleibt stehn * Jesus stood still

Come, tell me what you really want!

The story of a blind beggar in Jericho led to an amazing process of healing in my own life. When Jesus and his disciples walked past the beggar, he called out “Have mercy on me!” The bystanders threatened him to stop shouting, but Jesus stood still and called the beggar to himself and asked, “What do you want me to do for you?”

During the sermon about this biblical story, suddenly Jesus stood still in front of me. And he asked: “What do you want me to do for you?” What a unique and God-given moment, like rarely before and after.

What things would come to your mind? Wealth? Health? Long life? Marriage partner? Special gifting?

After some going and back and forth in my thoughts, I answered, “Jesus, I want to be free from my addictions.” Even though I had learned with the help of the 12-step program to manage my addictions fairly well, I knew deep down, that I was not completely free.

Jesus answered “OK!” I did not know when it would happen, and I did not want to shout victory too early, but after a few months it was obvious that a real change had happened. I was free from my addictive behavior such as workaholism, overeating, control addiction and their various relatives. Praise God!

The same year God gave healing and liberation in several other areas of my life. That’s why I call it my “Year of Jubilee.”

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Jesus said to him, “Go your way; your faith has made you well.”
And immediately he recovered his sight and followed him on the way.
Mk 10:52

Invitation to the light – Cold Wax painting

Invitation to the light – Cold Wax painting

Finally, I no longer want to hide the paintings that are now on display at the exhibition in Wels. As it says in the invitation for the opening, they are very personal – they reflect certain mile stones of my personal journey with Jesus, which is a journey of healing from deep hurts to freedom and wholeness.

Light on the Path
Light on the Path

Come, dare to walk the way with me

God’s light falls on our path and we are challenged to decide, whether we accept the invitation or not. Will we continue on our way, following the others, the masses? Or do we dare to break out? It is a risk, since we don’t know what exactly it means to be ‘en route’ with God.

At least that’s how I experienced it: as an 18 year old atheist I suddenly realized that God does exist and that I am not in harmony with him. I knew without any human explanation that if I died today, I would not be with God but somewhere else – far away. The light fell onto my way. I stood a the crossing and could not know whether I will get another chance. My thoughts went back and forth. What should I do? This was no longer a question whether God existed. I also understood where I would end up if I continued as before. It was more the questions: what it entailed, what God would expect, what are my motives, would it be an egoistic motive? My reflection did not get me anywhere. My thought where quite confused.

In the end I decided that I could know the answers to my questions, unless I tried it out. And so I dared to accept the risk – I invited Jesus to take over the leadership of my life and lead me on this new way to the light – back to God. Since then I am ‘en route’ with Jesus and I have never regretted it.